Sunday, November 01, 2015

Where did I go wrong?

Today's weigh-in: 223.2
Weight gained: .8lbs

I am just in the grip of a crushing depression this morning, with no real reason why.  I'm exhausted, all my muscles are sore, and my joints ache.  My husband thinks this might be the "keto flu", the body's way of purging toxins as it adapts to the new diet.  Whatever it is, I feel rotten.  I'm planning on starting one of those 30-day exercise challenges that I always find on Pinterest, but it remains to be seen if I'm feeling good enough to start it.  Not that the first day requires much effort, but still.  I just feel sad and defeated today.  Maybe my muscles are sore from walking around the zoo yesterday at the Halloween party they have, but I shouldn't be that out of shape.  I don't know.

It doesn't help my mood that I inexplicably gained some weight yesterday.  I didn't eat Halloween candy by the ton like I usually do; in fact, I hardly ate anything bad at all.  My "cheat" day consisted of two McDonald's french fries, two peanut butter M&Ms, a goldfish cracker, and a cheeseburger from Wendy's with the bun removed.  I'm sure that added to my carb count, but I find it hard to believe that it was enough to push me out of my weight loss zone. 

So, I'm at a loss.  Or rather, a gain, I guess.  I'm already tired of eggs, and meat, and cheese.  I desperately want to eat a big old bowl of cereal, or a couple pieces of toast.  It's funny; as much as I want to eat a whole bowl of mashed potatoes, I think the first thing I would choose to binge on is french toast.  Maybe that's just because it's time for breakfast, and all I can think of is not eating the eggs and sausage that are currently coming my way.  Again.

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