237.2
I should've put in yesterday's weight, 235.4. that was a good one. But inexplicably, I bounced back up almost two pounds. Not sure why. I had an extra cup of coffee yesterday morning. I had leftover Chinese for lunch, and didn't even finish it. No snacking. Nachos for dinner, and I didn't even eat half of what I had. Very small piece of birthday cake. The only thing I can think of is that there was a lot of sodium, so maybe I retained a lot of water?
237.4
I have "officially" crossed the -30 lbs mark from when I took my first shot in August. I was 268 the day of and the morning after, so that puts me at -31. However, I never recorded my weight at my heaviest, which was probably 271, so I feel like I'm closer to being 35 lbs down.
Today is my birthday. I'm 52. A weird age. I'm over 50 and have been for a couple of years, so there's no feeling of newness or a milestone being reached. The closer I get to 63, the weirder I feel: my mom and both my grandfathers passed away at 63.
When I was in my later 40s I had set a goal for myself: 50 by 50. Losing 50 lbs at that time would've put me around 175-180, which is close to my target now. I'd like to get down to 170. The two other times I've been successful with weight loss, in the mid 2000s and then again around 2015 or so, that's around where my weight had been.
While I'm not at "52 by 52", I do feel like I'll hopefully be well past that by 53. There's still a lot to do with lifestyle changes, but it's nice to see noticeable progress.
I say "noticeable," but I really haven't had anyone remark on my weight. But I notice, and that's what matters.
240.0
I'm not quite done with this week yet, but it's been a rotten one
Last week at this time, I was closing in on today's weight. I was at 240.5 on that Wednesday and 240.3 on that Thursday. I though that was setting me up to pass that 240 milestone that weekend.
Instead, a yo-yo started bouncing.
Friday: 242.0
Saturday: 240.0
Sunday: 241.6
Monday: 240.7
Tuesday: 240.9
Today: 240.0
So, I haven't actually lost any weight since my 240.0 weigh in on Saturday. I've pretty much just gained and lost the same two pounds or so.
I've wanted to eat this week. I've wanted to snack. I've felt unsatisfied with the serving size I've consumed and wanted to go back for seconds. I went out with a friend one evening and had a couple of drinks. I wanted"junk" food like popcorn, chips, and French fries.
I'm still technically on track for a loss by the time I get to Friday. I am half a pound down from one week ago, but it's also the same weight I was Saturday. This week has felt like a disaster. I thought that this strongest dose of the medication would make it the easiest to keep losing weight, but instead, these last two weeks, really, have seemed more challenging than the previous ones.
I still haven't gotten around to the gym, which I know will help, but I'm also afraid the extra activity will make me want to eat more. I'm also anxious about going to my in-laws' house this weekend. That's three full days of good food, snacks, and someone who may get offended if I don't eat seconds.
241.6
Bounced back up again this morning. I went to dinner with a friend last night, and while I didn't finish my meal or eat an excessive amount of chips, I did have two large blended margaritas. I suspect the combination of alcohol and fruit probably made the calorie content pretty high. I'm hoping that tomorrow's weigh in will drop back down. That 240 milestone would be a nice one to cross, and I'll feel better once I'm day enough below it that I know I won't bounce back above it with a gain.
The bounces are always disheartening. I know some weight loss programs recommend only weighing yourself weekly, and I can see why; you'd be likely to guarantee at least a small drop every week. I've just always been afraid that if I do only weigh myself weekly and I backslide, it'll be hard to correct.
But it's also a reminder that this weight loss is tenuous, so I need to stay diligent on my eating. This week we're going down to my in-laws' house for the latter part of the week. I will have to take my medication with me. I'll also need to be careful with food; there's always a lot to eat.
240.0
I'm happy with that because I bounced up about two pounds yesterday. Not sure why. I think sometimes if I've been drinking a lot of water, I retain some of it. That may be what I can attribute it to. I didn't drink much water last night. I also took a stool softener (seems to help if I feel a bit constipated). That may be why I dropped as much this morning as I did.
I was right; last weekend, the heartburn hit me HARD. I struggled Saturday and Sunday with it and took multiple Prilosec capsules and a couple of antacid tablets. I will pay close attention to it today.
This week I've noticed that, while it do feel full sooner than I used to, the temptation to keep eating is still there. It's easy to want to purge when I overeat. I've been a binge eater all my life and developed bulimia when I was a junior in college. I've struggled with that off and on ever since. I'm very happy with daily weight loss, but on those days when I don't lose it I gain, it's easy to want to turn to that as a solution. I need to train my eating habits so I don't fall back on that. I don't want to take this medication forever, but I'm worried that I won't be able to maintain the loss without it.
I also haven't gotten an exercise routine started, so I really need to do that.
244.4
I've actually been at that weight two days in a row. Hoping tomorrow is another loss and not a gain.
I took the first shot of my last vial of medication. I did measure out as much as I could get from the previous vial, but it was only about .2 mL. Not enough to seem like it's worth it to take as a dose, especially since I would be stepping up the next week. I just have to hope that the shipments do account for what seems like potentially four weeks that are otherwise not covered in this first shipment.
I do think I've noticed that I seem pretty prone to a bit of heartburn on the day after my shot, so I will pay attention to that tomorrow. We're going out of town tomorrow, so I need to be careful with my eating.
246.4
I was a little worried that I wasn't going to have a loss today because I had spent two days at the exact same weight and then gained yesterday, but maybe that precedes a loss. Or it could be that I was just overly hydrated yesterday morning, as I drank a Gatorade Zero at my son's hockey practice the night before.
Anyway, this "officially" puts me at a 20-lb loss since we returned from our vacation at the beginning of August, but it's really closer to 25 lbs down from what is likely my heaviest, about 270 or 271. Not bad for not quite two full months.
I find it a little easier when my husband is out of town to eat less in the evenings because I can just make or get something for my boys and not necessarily feel like I need to eat much myself. My husband came back from a week out of town yesterday, so I'll need to be careful this week to not increase my intake. I'm pretty pleased that I've stayed under 250, and I'd like to continue to stay there.
I have one vial remaining of my current shipment of medication, and it's the strongest dosage, which means I'm supposed to step up next week to what is intended to be the maintenance level for the rest of the year. I haven't felt like I've had any real side effects from the medication so far, and I'm hoping the next level will be the same.
What I am worried about, though, is the next shipment. These shipments are supposed to be three months' worth of doses, one vial per month, but they're all supposed to be 2 mL vials. That doesn't exactly translate to three full months. Instead, it will leave me four weeks short on the year at the end. My next shipment says "about October 30" in the TrimRx portal, but that's when I would need to be taking my next vial from that shipment. Does "about October 30" mean it will be shipped then, or that it will arrive then? What if I don't have my next shipment when I actually need it?
I'm now trying to figure out what do to about that. I disposed of my first vial, the lowest dosage, already, even though it still had a little left in it (from my misjudging of the dosage the first week). I did notice in my current vial, which I'm technically done with, there is still a little medication left, but it doesn't look like it's a full dosage, maybe .25 mL instead of .5. I haven't tossed it out. Now I'm thinking, what if I add a week into this middle dosage by taking whatever remains of this vial next Friday? Will it mess up my progress to take an incomplete dosage? I've done that once before, of course, but it was the first dose, not a middle-of-the-cycle dose.
I may actually go as far as to measure it out next week. If I can get at least .25 mL out of it, I think I'll go ahead and add the dose. If not, I'll just dispose of that syringe and take the first dose from the third vial.
It's something to think about for subsequent cycles. I need to make up several weeks in order to get myself through a full year. Not sure how I'll account for that yet.
